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Why Am I Still Here?
An Existential User Manual for the Modern Senior, with Help from Viktor Frankl
You’ve worked for fifty years. Paid the bills. Raised the kids. Maybe you even survived polyester. Now, here you are—retired, free, allegedly “living the dream.” And yet, at 10:47 a.m. on a perfectly pleasant Wednesday, you find yourself staring into your third cup of coffee and quietly thinking:
“Now what?”
If you’ve felt that creeping sense of restlessness, purposelessness, or emotional static buzzing in the background of your newly freed life, congratulations: you’ve entered what Viktor Frankl called the existential vacuum. And no, it’s not the dusty one in the closet. It’s the internal emptiness that shows up when you’re no longer being told what to do by society, but you haven’t yet figured out what to do for yourself.
Let’s dive in, shall we? Existential dread loves company.
🧔 Meet Viktor Frankl: Therapist, Survivor, Philosopher of Meaning
Viktor Frankl was an Austrian psychiatrist who survived four Nazi concentration camps, including Auschwitz. While he endured unspeakable horror, he made a profound observation:
Even in the worst circumstances, humans can survive if they have meaning.
Even when everything is taken from you—freedom, safety, dignity—if you can find a why, you can survive almost any how.
This idea became the basis of his therapy method called logotherapy, which argues that the fundamental human drive isn’t pleasure (sorry, Freud) or power (sorry, Nietzsche fanboys), but meaning.
🕳️ The Existential Vacuum: Luxury Emptiness for the Modern Senior
So here’s the twist: Frankl saw that while people in extreme hardship had to find meaning to survive, those in modern comfort were often drowning in freedom, but starving for purpose.
You’ve probably heard phrases like:
- “Now that I’m retired, I don’t know who I am anymore.”
- “I should be enjoying this, but I feel…empty.”
- “Is it weird I miss work meetings?!”
That’s the existential vacuum talking.
It shows up because our society trains us for achievement, not authenticity. We’re great at climbing ladders, but not so great at figuring out where the ladder is leaning—or what to do when we get to the top and realize it’s just a rooftop with no view.
🤷 Why We Want Someone to Tell Us “Why We’re Here”
Let’s be honest: we want someone to tell us what our life means. That’s not lazy—it’s human.
When we were younger, life gave us scripts:
- Go to school.
- Get a job.
- Have kids.
- Work until your soul escapes through your keyboard.
Then, finally, you retire. The script ends. The credits roll… but you’re still here. For another 20 years, if you’re lucky.
You see, freedom without structure isn’t peace. It’s psychological vertigo. You want to do something meaningful, but nobody hands you a golden envelope that says, “Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is to take up watercolor and mentor young weirdos.”
We want someone to say, “This is why you’re here,” because:
- It takes the pressure off.
- It makes failure feel less personal.
- It makes life seem less random.
But here’s the hard truth: no one’s coming. No guru, no angel, no midlife therapist with a clipboard of destinies.
🧭 Enter: Internal Truth
If no one’s going to tell you what your life means, it’s time to consult the one expert left: you.
Internal truth is the sense of purpose or value that comes not from applause, likes, or job titles—but from your own gut-level knowing of what matters to you.
It’s the part of you that knows:
- You feel more alive when you’re creating than consuming.
- Helping your neighbor feels better than being right on Facebook.
- Sitting by the lake doing absolutely nothing somehow feels like everything.
But internal truth is quiet. It doesn’t shout. It doesn’t trend. It’s usually hiding behind your endless to-do list and 30 years of polite people-pleasing. It only surfaces when you sit still long enough to ask,
“What do I actually care about, now that no one is grading me?”
🧠 How to Find Meaning (Even Without a Job Title or Company Badge)
- Reconnect with Curiosity
Try something new. Badly. You’re allowed to suck at things. In fact, that’s where all the fun lives. - Shift from Achievement to Contribution
You don’t need to prove anything anymore. You get to give. Time. Wisdom. Humor. Banana bread. Whatever. - Build a Flexible Routine
Meaning doesn’t require being busy—it requires intention. A few rituals—like morning walks, book club, or “Judgmental Gardening Hour”—can anchor your day. - Stay Connected
Isolation is the existential vacuum’s best friend. Call someone. Join something. Just talk to other humans, even if they insist on using emojis in real life. - Remember: It’s Okay to Feel Lost Sometimes
This isn’t a failure—it’s a sign that you’ve graduated from the life you had and are ready to build the life you want.
🧓 Final Thoughts from One Existential Wanderer to Another
Life after retirement isn’t just about avoiding death with Sudoku. It’s about continuing to become you, only deeper, funnier, and with better snacks.
Viktor Frankl believed meaning is never “given”—it’s discovered, chosen, and created. Every day, you get to say: “This is what matters to me today.”
Even if it’s just sitting on the porch with a cold drink, realizing you’ve finally got time to enjoy the breeze.
That counts.
You count.
And you’re still here—for a reason you get to decide.